Monday, July 28, 2008
Time to do a little back tracking. Starting from...
Saturday.
Went down to Clarke Quay to meet Bennett. Spent half a day there. Listening to something that made me wavered, but eventually, I dropped the idea.
Went down to Pam's Birthday after that. Quite a number of people there. But only interacted with those S27 peeps. Haha~
A photo of us after the party.
With the 'China Man'~ Haha
Friday
Worked, didnt manage to catch Dark Knight. HAIZ.
I can now say, I REALLY AFRAID of NAMECARDS!!!
Look at this Look at this!!! Im supposed to SORT all these out!! I spent half a day, only managed to clear some of it only. What is this~!~ Im goin to sort the cards tomorrow when I report to work.Another thing. I managed to interview Winny for my WIL project. I recorded the interview using my phone. It was round 30 mins long. When I went home to open the file. Its onli 3 mins plus!!!!! N I didnt take note of anything in the hard copy form~!~ Now, I gotta use my super short term memory to recall what she had said.
Thursday
Some relative----My grandfather's brother's daughter and her daughter ( a.k.a my aunt n couz) came to Singapore from Hainan Island. I have never met them before. So, I tagged along with my dad to 迎接 them from the budget terminal. Nvr been there too, and I wanted to take the wheel, so...Go there see see lorz. Budget terminal is really Budget. Haha.
While waiting...This is the waiting area anyway.
They are my relatives. The tallest 2 are the relatives from China.
Think they are goin back tomorrow.Fast Foward to now.
Im cracking my brains on what long term goals do I have, professionally wise. I realise I dont have. Even if have, I also dunno how to break down into 8 action steps. Progress is so so slow!!
remembering the days... @ 10:49 PM
Wednesday, July 23, 2008
Stared at this page for more than half an hour, and still have no idea what to write about.
Hmmmm, so this post will be quite random..
从以前，有什么所谓的 'Best Friend'。但现在，都不了了之了。
所以现在呢，I got no best friend. Its just 1 circle of close friends.
我对 best 的定义是：独一无二，相对的。
独一无二的意思是，theres only 1.
相对是，it must be mutual.
这可能也是我对爱情的观念。
不知道是不是 Libra 的性格 (as though everything blame to Libra), 我不喜欢 '不平衡' 的感觉。
Ok , I said this post was random....I dont even know how to end it...
remembering the days... @ 7:02 PM
Friday, July 18, 2008
Im now a certified 'knocker'. Im prone to knocking into things. Whether at home or not. In these 2 weeks, I have collected a total of 5 'orr chey' ( blue black). How wonderful! But luckily, those are not permanent scars. Also, Im always very proud of the inner side of my arm cuz I have not left any scar on it，光滑光滑！！But now, I've got a 2cm long scar on my arm. A scald mark left behind when I accidently touched the side of the pot. :( I hope it will disappear...1 ugly scar on my neck is enough, I dont need more.
----------------------------------------------------------
Yest, I went to NLB HQ again. There are 2 kind of lift. 1 is the glass lift where u can see the outide and 1 normal one. I love to take the glass lift when I am desending. It gives a thrill of free falling. But then again，everytime I took the lift, Im scared of the feeling. Its complicated. Im scared of the feelin, yet I want to try it again and again.
I dont understand my purpose. Its just, maybe...finding thrill within safe walls??
OK, 放工咯~~But gotta go school now. Byebye!
remembering the days... @ 11:03 AM
Monday, July 14, 2008
Kat told me I will report to Winny next time instead. So, we had a little introduction and an hour chat.
She asked me to : Tell me about yourself.
Seriously, I hate this question, but it seems that managers just love to ask that question. I got the same question when I went for an interview at Kino. Totally screwed it. Whatever.
Luckily, she will prompt me what to say and since its not a work interview, its more relax. But I still got no idea what I should say except the place im studying and what im studying. FULLSTOP.
Im lucky that she didnt ask me to : Tell me about your strong points and weak points.
I seriously wont know how to answer. Maybe weak points will be easier to answer. 小气啊，自私，不爱笑，脸很臭 etc etc... As for strong points, I cant seem to find. Perhaps I need someone to reassure me that Im not that bad actually.
I was pondering. Long time ago, I was told that everyone will have 1 talent in their entire life. But 我活了20年，我看不到我有任何长处 in any area.
Suck at art; drawing origami, u name it, I suck at it.
Fail grade 5 piano, singing not good, dancing not good.
Results not good either. A level maths n physics 从来就没开窍过。
学过皮毛的书法，percussion, ballet, volleyball, guitar, iceskating, etc. Everything is 半桶水, maybe, 十分之一桶水吧...
简单来说, 琴棋书画，没有一样精通。
再说，我也不是一个进得了厨房，出得了天堂的女生。Im practically 进不了厨房的一个人。
Im just a mediocre being. 比陈欣怡还更陈欣怡。
remembering the days... @ 11:32 PM
I've misplaced my lip balm. It might have dropped while I was eating, or while i was driving, or somewhere else. Im actually quite reliant on it. Feeling so uneasy now.
真的不能没有它。
Just like what Shenghui told me. In this era, almost everyone has an addiction that is worse than taking drugs. People get so dependent on it that if we cant touch it for one day, 会浑身不对劲。That thing is: Computer and Internet.
When we got nothing to do, we can stare blankly at the computer screen wondering what we can do, but in fact, we are just staring at it for the sake of staring at it.
I do that alot of times. Staring at the MSN list when Im bored. No, Im not goin to talk to anyone. I just stare because I got NOTHING better to do. No matter how bored I am, I still refuse to off the com and do other things. Switching off the com makes me feel empty somehow. So, I will just continue to stare and click n browse aimlessly. Like 开着也爽 tt kind of feeling~~
If my house interent is down, I will seriously feel lost, thinking of what else I can do.
真的不能没它。
是习惯产生了依赖，失去依赖而不知所措。
I just want to know where is my Lip Balm... :(
remembering the days... @ 12:59 AM
Sunday, July 13, 2008
Came back from Cao Ge's concert. I thought it was nice. Nice voice really. Not much of a screaming, 随性的恰到好处。 I enjoyed it.
Took bus home, was realli scared that I need to walk home after alighting at the transfer busstop. Alight at 1 stop after the stop 1 always alight, in case i REALLY need to walk home. Nearly got a heart attack when I saw most of the las bus timing was over. If it was earlier, I will gladly walk home in the breezy weather, but its so late, and the thought of me walking past Ngee Ann Sec frightens me. Cab is not in my 考虑名单，拐个弯还要 pay that bloody 50% surcharge, over my dead body~Somemmore I just read yahoo news....
ComfortDelGro taxis to impose 30—cent surcharge from July 17
Understandable, but TOTALLY DISGUSTED. Now, who would wanna take cab?Took a bus home, thank god there are still.
虽然常走那段回家的路，我还是会怕，因为夜深人静，而我又会想入非非，害怕蟑螂，怕后面有人，有不明物体之类等等。
I will always listen to my iPod, so as to avoid hearing sounds that Im not suppose to hear, but den, it will slow down my reaction if some1 or thing were to approach from behind.
I know im scaring myself, but I just couldnt help it. No matter how many times I walked, Im still scared.
我不能习惯而不去害怕，我只能习惯害怕的感觉。
Jeremy made me more scared after he told me his encounter. Damn.
remembering the days... @ 1:49 AM
Wednesday, July 02, 2008
我还年轻。
因为有好多的人生道理，人际关系处理，作为人的处事方式等等，我都还没学会。对事对人，我有太多的感情用事，不理智不实际的想法。
因为我还在成长。
现在的我们就像似棵小树，看着刚萌芽的幼苗，觉得自己老了，更坚强。但是在大树的心理，小树还是禁不起太多的风吹雨打，还是需要呵护。
直到我能学会处事方式，直到我能禁得起风吹雨打，我才是真正的长大了。