its been dunno how many months since i blog le...cuz my com is DEAD!!!!Argh..so irritating...its always dying...sian diao...anyway...tis few months rite....is quite stressful 4 mi...whether is mentally...physically..emotional or wad...is juz all came crashing down to mi....wad the hell lo....realli quite sian la.. well...school now is like...rushing tutorials like mad..but den still cant pass a single test...is very discouraging..obvious..not onli tt..i dun understand alot of topics..haiz....in short..is juz everything is in a mess..tts all...dunno how am i goin to survive till the end of tis yr...juz haf to try.. recently...i always feel very tired even though i slept 4 a long time..dunno y oso...suppose my body cant take it le??or wad??i oso dunno..it is juz...very very tired....realli cant take it if anything worse were to happen.. anyway..tt SYF is coming...hmm...i wanted to quit choir de...but den tt woman..dun allow mi to quit lo...but den she now so see mi bu shuang le...den still let mi quit..is like so wad the hell lo..well...cca is suppose to be fun n likable...but den..it is not happening to mi lo...it is like..so stress...n need to see her...make it more worse den ever..i'veseriously nvr dislike a person to such a great extent lo...she is the 1st..cant find any1 as mean n evil as her....ARGH!!she spoil everything..if she is not in choir...i think every1 will be happy n looking forward to it.. speaking bout SYF...mid year exams r also drawing near....n i we r taking the exams 1 week after every1 took....cuz of SYF...but den rite...lidat every1 will be playing...den we all a few pple still need to study..how am i suppose to concentrate ne??how to concentrate if my frens r all playing without mi??i realli dunno...i dun feel like taking the exams 1 week later lehz...but den..i scared this well affect the results...argh...think i will see how 1st ba.. these few weeks rite...i feel very strange lo...i like sumhow have a dist between mi n my fren..is like....the feeling is like not like b4 le lo...is like...she dun tell mi things..den alot of things i know bout her is thru the conversation she had wif other fren..if not..i will not know anytihng lo..this is the 1st time i got this kinda prob wif frens lo...i`dun like it la..is like...whether im there or not is not very important to them lidat lo..ya...this lead to mi being like keep mi away frm them...cuz i think they will be much happier if i wasnt around...i know sumtimes things aint as lousy as i think..but den tt is realli how i feel lo..den this rite....will sumtimes lead mi n her like stuck in a very gan ga thingy or wad lo...dunno y things will turn out like tt....i realli dunno lo...wanted to talk to her...but den i realli dunno how to put it across...ya...den dey like got alot of things to sae to each other lidat...leaving mi thinking tt i am some kinda of outsider lidat..n feel like since dey haf each other company liao..wad for bother bout mi...izzit tt i think too much??being too pessimistic??other frenz advise mi to talk things out la...but den..how to sae??haiz....now rite..i juz haf to see if things get worse lo....if it get worse...i might haf to open my mouth le.. y do all these things happen in this yr??wif all these a level stress...cca thingy..bout frenz n more..i wonder will things turn out fine??i hope so...think it will be some time b4 the next blog will appear here..tts all 4 now..