Sunday, October 14, 2007
2nd post in a day. After a few minutes, cuz i find this relatively true, maybe to a huge extent, of what i think of myself.
| You Are a Haunted House |
 You are a deeply complicated and sometimes deeply disturbed person. You can't help but be attracted to the dark side of life - even when it's pretty gruesome. In relationships, you are honest and real. So real that it's definitely a little scary. You don't fake it or play along just to get along. And people either respect this... or deeply resent it Your life is thoughtful, deep, and even philosophical at times. You see the world as it is. You don't sugar coat anything. Facing and fighting your fears is important to you. You believe that too much of life is whitewashed. You're not too morbid... you just believe that you can't enjoy life without exorcising a few demons first! At your best, you are brave, intense, and fearless. Not only do you face the abyss head on - you challenge your friends to do the same. At your worst, you are depressed and morose. If you're not careful, your thoughts take over your mind... and they aren't pretty! |
Like everybody, I also got my 'down' days. Its as if dementors were around me. Thoughts just go worse. Nothing i think came out right. I cant think of an english term, but 钻牛角尖 is the term. Yes, i know i always use that, but tt realli applies for me. Maybe in the past. I hope im no longer like this now.
After a few incidents, I tried living in a different way. I no longer look at those 'problems' as problems. Perhaps its just a phase that i got to pull it thru. Im glad that now its over, only that it comes hunting me now and then.
Sometimes i wonder, 装傻是不是活得更开心的一个方法？The more you know, the clearer the picture is, the more u will get hurt. But for a 38 person like me, its difficult to control probing more. I tried hard, to 装没听见，没感觉。久而久之，我学会了不问，不打听。要说的，自然会开口。不说的，也不勉强。我也学会不去在乎太多。
世上的万物有分大小轻重。同样的，人与人之间的感情也有的衡量。单方面看得太重，反而会伤害自己，也会伤到你不想伤害的另一方。试着放开，自己变轻松，对另一方也好一点，皆大欢喜。
这是我选择的方式，选择保护自己的方式。
也许我选择这方式，是因为我害怕了。