Friday, July 01, 2005
This is the first week of sch..2nd semester..3rd term. This week, not happy cuz of the bloody seating arrangement. The seating arrangement is like this..
The red 1 is the place where i sit..its a corner seat..den the seats to my left is where all my close frenz sit. Well...actually its nothing big..but den when i sit there rite..its realli as if im sitting alone lo...the fren sitting beside mi nvr tok to mi...she talked to the fren sitting on the other side. So when im sitting there..is like see my frenz talkin n discussing things n im down there with the wall...how will u feel if u were sitting at my place? Is like got neglected of maybe forgotten by my frenz.. n worse..im the kind of person when if u nvr talk to mi for some time..after some time, i will juz DONT TALK n withdraw myself n wont smile, which will make mi look very fierce. N because of the sitting arrangment, we had a little conflict between us. I dun wanna sit there, the feeling is realli quite terrible. But wad else can i do? Y do i always haf to give in? In fact, im realli quite tired of giving into pple. Though now i still sit there..im not happy..not at all..cuz i realli feel left out. Sae wadever u wan bout mi..sae mi stubborn, persistent. wadeva...i dun care, i juz dun like it.
But so wad if i dun like? Wad can i do? Sit at other place so that pple will know that im not happy? Continue to sit there n keep quiet throughout? Y muz i be the 1 compromising but others juz dun gif a damn about mi if im happy there notz? Frenz sitting at the same row keep asking mi y i so quiet...wad am i suppose to sae? Sae i dun wanna sit there cuz no 1 talk to mi? Or juz shake my head n sae nothing happen? WILL they compromise? WILL they? I dun think so. I think onli magde will..but no use lo. It is a simple situation but yet so complicated cuz it is not juz the arrangment that counts, it involves other matters..